All my life I've had trouble sleeping. When I was younger, it would take me hours to get to sleep. My mom deemed me the "night owl" of the family. I would stay up really late, roaming the house for someone to talk to...and then sleep until late afternoon. A lot of the night I would just lie in my bed and think. I also rarely slept through the night. It was normal for me to wake up 5-10 times to adjust or peek at the clock.
Early in my relationship with Matt, I didn't sleep for other reasons. Okay, now get your heads out of the gutter! Here's the thing. Because Matt lived in Virginia and I lived in Indiana, we only got to see each other for long weekends once every couple of months. I would literally lie in bed and watch him sleep all night. I didn't want to waste a single second of my time with him sleeping. I just wanted to be with him...to feel his arms around me and have him close. It was something I got so little of and wanted more than anything. This would be especially tough on my last nights with him. I would just stare at the clock, watching my time with him slip away until the alarm would ring and I would be forced to leave the place I wanted to be the most.
These days, things are different. I no longer experience the trouble I used to have getting to sleep. Sure, there are days when I'm not super tired, but it is no where near like it used to be. I'm comfortable. I'm where I belong. I truly believe this is the reason for my improvement.
I will admit, it is still a rarity for me to sleep through the night. Perhaps I'm just restless. I'm used to it by now and it doesn't really bother me. I'm also a constant checker of the clock. Except this morning...
I woke up, chilled by the ceiling fan...and reached for more blanket. I settled into a nice, warm, comfortable position closer to my husband and closed my eyes to continue sleeping away the night. In rare form, I didn't look at the clock seeing as there was no way it was even remotely close to being the time to wake up. My eyes had been closed no more than 2 seconds when the alarm clock rang.
Not cool Monday. Not cool.
Life Lately: Week 15
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16 comments:
Mondays are dumb. I hate them. Cute post!!
I hate getting comfortable and warm and then having to get up, ugh! I understand what you said about when you guys were dating long distance, I completely agree with you. I never want to sleep when I am with my 900 miles away man!
Ugh!!! Hate that. Thinking you have hours left when in reality your alarm rings 5 minutes later? Probably the most torturous thing ever.
Okay, not EVER. But, you know. It's close.
Stupid alarm clocks! Ugh... they just ruin EVERYTHING! :)
I too am a troubled sleeper. It was helpful in college when I could stay awake for days on very little sleep to accomplish work, but when break or summer came around? Oh, now that is when it became a nuisance. I hated always checking the clock or getting up to walk around so I wasn't just laying in bed.
Lately I haven't been having as much trouble, but I don't know the reason why. I love your reasoning behind your sleep improvement. And I am so glad it has happened for you. :)
Hope you had a fantastic weekend!
HATE alarm clocks with a passion, especially on Mondays!
alarm clocks are evil!
Oh I hate that!! The worst thing ever!!!
Stupid alarm clocks!
We actaully don't have a clock in our bedroom (I set my alarm on my phone)--I was a constant time checker and it's actaully really helped me sleep better because I have to reach for my phone, hit the thing to make the backlight turn on--it's actual effort to see the time now, so, I usually don't even try!
I hate it when that happens! I can definitely relate to watching the clock tick by time with someone you love though...my boyfriend is long distance now and I hate looking at the clock and realizing our time together is almost over. It's dumb!
A girl after my own heart! I'm a night owl of the highest degree. I just lie awake thinking of a billion things. Then I usually turn on the tv watching the dumbest infomercials
Oh that happens to me sometimes and its the worst! Glad your sleep problems are {mostly} solved. I can very much so relate though, I am an "alarm peeper" also :)
Oh no! I hate when the alarm goes off and you aren't entirely expecting it!
Are you sure you didn't fall back into a deep sleep? That's happens to me all the time!
I have always been the same way that you were. I am trying to be more of a get-to-bed-early kind of a gal because I have to get to work so early, but I just find so many things to keep me up and entertained. Its even worse now that we have a television in our bedroom. I think the thing I'm looking for is a little thing called will power....
Oh, I have been there, sister! Well put!
Waking up in the middle of the night...seeing every hour on the clock...I've been there! Thank goodness for naps though! When I was first diagnosed with thyroid disease, I had a very hard time sleeping, and I was always extremely tired (symptoms of thyroid problems). In fact, when I was working, I'd go out to my car at lunch to nap! Isn't that awful?! LOL
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