Friday, September 10, 2010

21 weeks!

My baby girl is growing!  She's now the size of a banana!  And like a lot of the other fruit references....I indeed have a banana in my lunch today.  Yum!

This week has been a little difficult emotionally on me.  My Labor Day weekend was not super relaxing and it left me feeling a little stressed.  I got sick twice on Tuesday...once at work (ick)...and have just been feeling a little off.  I haven't been able to feel the baby move yet, and I'm really down about it.  I know everyone is different and it's not to the point where it's abnormal I haven't felt anything yet...but it's hard.  I feel like we're missing out on a huge milestone and building a stronger connection to our sweet girl. 

And the worst part, I've convinced myself it is because I was not the skinniest girl on the planet before I conceived.  So now I picture my sweet, innocent baby surrounded by all my fat, trying so hard to move around, but suffocating in the process.  I know.  I'm being dramatic.  And Matt may've laughed when I told him this.  So clearly I'm ridiculous.  But I can't help feeling like it's somehow my fault.

Anyhow, let's move onto happier thoughts, shall we?

How Far Along:  21 weeks! 

Maternity Clothes:  Boy do I need some more shirts.  I'm having trouble fitting into my T-shirts.  Not cool.

Sleep:  I have now developed intense hip pain during the night.  I feel like an elderly person.  I sleep with a pillow between my knees...but I think by the end of the night it has flattened so much it begins to bother my hips.  And it's the kind of pain that wakes you up.  Ouch!  Suggestions?

Food:   Clearly food it not an issue for me.

Best Moment of the Week:  Hm.  Is it sad that I can't think of anything?

What I'm Looking Forward to:   This month is insane.  With Junior League starting up, buying a house, our anniversary, and more doctor's appointments coming up....I'm really just looking forward to October.

12 comments:

Danielle said...

I felt my son "flutter" at 18 weeks and then didn't feel him kick until about 22 or 23. My husband didn't feel him until probably 27 or 28. So no worries - things aren't wrong...everything's fine. :) Those people who say they felt the baby kick at 10 weeks are nuts. Nobody feels a blueberry. haha

Lucy Marie said...

I wasn't feeling my baby move by that point either ... don't fret. Trust me, she WILL make up for it in the coming months but I remember also feeling sad that I wasn't feeling her yet.

Sorry your weekend wasn't great. What happened?

And the hips - I had that pain around that time, too. It was intense. Your joints are all shifting and changing to make room. I hope that it won't last long.

Llama said...

So happy to hear you are doing well! Dont worry sweetie...you are right everyone is different. Just be patient! :)

5th Belle Avenue said...

YAAAAYYYY!!!! CONGRATULATIONS on your precious little GIRL, Mama! And I know your mind is going to race w/reasons and ideas on why you're not feeling anything yet, but just know that you WILL feel it eventually and it will be amazing and you will forget this time that you're NOT feeling it. Hope u feel something SOON! XOXO

Sonja said...

Jenny!! You were not big by any means! and I mean that. When we met in Indy I thought right away "what is this girl thinking? she's gorgeous and skinny!" I'm serious. You'll feel little miss soon :) Maybe she sleeps ALOT :)

I've been sleeping with a small(ish) pillow under my side and another pillow between my knees. You can go to Target and find a really thick one! Mine never goes flat and is really comfortable. It seriously looks like I have a fort of pillows around me though haha

I love you. and Cheerup Buttercup!!

If you need a friend, I'm always a phone call/text/email away :)

BakerGirl said...

Maybe you should try a memory foam pillow between your legs. I find they're much harder to squish down for sleeping on and so it might support your hips all night.

Mrs EyeCanSee said...

The pillow between my legs was the only thing that got me through...it's a mazing what a difference it made! I'd like to tell you the hip thing get better...but I'd be lying.

As for movement...don't worry, it will happen. And it's not because of your PP size, I was a little on the plump side myself and I felt our little guy pretty early on. A lot of it has to do with where the placenta is, have they told you it's anterior? If it is, the placenta is sitting between you and the baby acting as a buffer, but as she gets bigger you'll feel it....and it will be amazing!

Tatiana said...

I definitely understand your pain about not being able to feel her move yet and feeling like you can't bond as well because of it. It's such an awaited moment, and I was feeling really anxious about it as well. However, even though it may be difficult, you shouldn't worry about it bc you know that both you and her are healthy. And trust me, once she'll start moving, you'll have a hard time stopping her from kicking your bladder and your ribs :-)

Naturally Caffeinated Family said...

Giiiirl, it's completely normal not to feel the baby move yet! (and you ARE small!) I'm sorry things have been stressful :( I hope you have a fabulous weekend! and with the pain, totally normal too, have you been to a chiropractor?, some even specialize in pregnancy, can really help! or maybe add another pillow in there too, I did two sometimes if one wasn't thick enough, and I put another one under my belly too :) Hugs!

Happiness Is... said...

I am getting anxious to feel the baby, too and I am 4 weeks behind you! I think it's hard not to wonder when it will happen, but it WILL happen and then you'll be so excited. Try to have patience, but it has nothing to do with the baby's health or your weight - you look great!

The Shabby Princess said...

Aw, sugar, I'm sorry you're stressing! Please don't! It's OK. You'll feel that little monkey movin' and shakin', don't you worry. And you're beautiful! I love you!!

I was in Chicago over the weekend for work and I stopped by the Bean and thought of you--since you posed that cute picture of "Baby's First Trip to The Bean".

xoxoxx

Shaina said...

Oh sweetheart. I'm so sorry you had a bad weekend - boo! And I think everyone already covered what I will say about the other issue - you are beautiful and glowing and you can't feel the baby kick yet because she's just not ready. You will, and soon! <3