Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Honesty About Weight Loss

I've never been skinny.

Well, that's a lie.  I was crazy thin when I was three.

Not sure what happened after that.

Oh yes I am.  I discovered sugar.

Anyways, the point is I've always had difficulty controlling my weight.  I can be super motivated one week and then completely not care the next.  It's mental for me for sure.  I was my thinnest as an adult at my wedding almost 4 years ago.  I lost just over 75 lbs. and was 6 lbs. away from my ultimate goal weight.  It's a number I have been striving for since, well, as long as I can remember.

Well, we went on a cruise for our honeymoon.  24 hour buffet.  Enough said, right?  I never hit my goal.  I didn't gain everything back, but slowly the weight started to come back on.  Here I am, 3 years later, 15 weeks pregnant with my little snuggle bug.

Let me assure you, that is not all baby belly.  There's a little bit of Mama belly in there as well.  I would venture to say I was about 30 lbs. heavier in this picture than at my wedding.  Ick.

But that was nothing compared to what I was in this picture.  38 weeks pregnant.  30 MORE lbs. later.


I know, I know.  Beautiful pregnant lady.  Growing a baby.  All that jazz.  But I was huge.  I felt huge and I looked huge...everywhere.  My dreams of being one of those cute pregnant ladies that were all belly were dashed.  But honestly, I didn't really care.  I was going to get my baby girl and I figured I would deal with the aftermath when she was here.

Well, my friends, she's definitely here and that time is now. 

I've been on Weight Watchers since Natalie was 5 weeks old.  They have a specific program for nursing mothers (14 extra points, hell yeah!) so I've been working that for now.  I lost 20 lbs. pretty quickly after giving birth but clearly I have some baby weight + mama weight still to lose.  In fact, I was pretty much right back to where I started so many years ago before my wedding.  A daunting task to say the least. 

Today was a great day in my fight against the bulge.  I hit my 10% goal!  I have lost 23.5 lbs. since starting WW.  It's going to be a long journey and it will probably take me longer than it takes for my daughter to celebrate her first birthday, but this time...this time I will hit my goal.  And I'm going to stay there!

I'm so happy I have this venue to stay motivated and accountable with my dear friends!  Thank you all so much for your support!  Loves!


The Coach's Wife said...

I have been a reader for a long time but I don't comment often.. but I have to say...yeah you!!! that's awesome!! I just recently found out I am pregnant and I am the same way. I am not a skinny-minny girl and I've got a muffin-top!! thank you for your honesty about your situation and I'm looking forward to reading more and being inspired in my own pregnancy. :-)

melissa said...

First, let me say "CONGRATULATIONS!" on reaching 10% goal! That's awesome! Way to go!

I could have written this exact post - well, right up to the part about not being the adorable, skinny pregnant lady I'd always hoped I would be. I've never been thin but I let myself get huge in college. I lost about 30 pounds with Weight Watchers and kept it off for years, then lost another 10 or so in the year before my wedding. But I was never as thin as I wanted (or needed) to be. When I got pregnant, I weighed 20 pounds more than I did on our wedding day less than two years earlier. EEK. Now I'm a chubby pregnant lady and I certainly can't blame all of that on baby. I'm scared about how hard it will be to take all this baby weight off, plus the weight I shouldn't have had before I was pregnant. But I'm determined to do it. Like you, I'm heading back to WW after she's born. I know it works if I stick to it. Thanks for the inspiration!

Kristin said...

Congrats and Good Luck!

Mrs EyeCanSee said...


I too have struggled with my weight for as long as I can remember. Since having the baby I've had zero motivation. Zip. Nil. Nada.

I'm not happy with my body. But I'm not unhappy enough to do anything about it. Does that even make sense?

I've started a diet about 100 times in the past few months and always end up back off the wagon. I've thought about trying WW....maybe having someone to check in with would keep me in line!

Miss Sweet Tea said...

Congrats on losing 23.5 lbs!! You are beautiful no matter what but good for you for wanting to get even more healthy and fit!

Llama said...

First of all congrats on working towards a healthy and happy lifestyle. As someone who has always weighed more than she wanted to, I can understand how you feel. Im not overweight, yet I know that I should eat healthier and be at a healthier weight. Honestly, I think you look amazing, pre baby, during baby and post baby. You have to feel good to look good, and you should do whatever it takes to make you smile. I think that WW is an amazing program and I actually just heard on the radio this morning that it is the #1 weight loss program out there. It is a lifestyle that can be kept long term.
Good luck with everything! :)

Kristen said...

congrats Jenny! I'm so proud of you! I feel like we have a little connection on our journey of dieting! :) I started on the Herbalife Diet in March and in 2 months I lost 20 pounds! It's amazing! I had started dieting again on my own in December, so total I've lost 30 pounds... I feel so much better about myself but am still totally not happy with my body. I just really need to work out I think.... Anyway, I'm super happy for you girl, way to go at working towards your goal!

jv726 said...

That's so awesome! Congratulations! I was on WW before I got pregnant and lost 40 lbs, then got pregnant and gained that 40 back. But I have lost about 35 of the baby weight and I am now back on WW, and it works so well! I really do love the program, and blogging is a good way to keep accountable too :)
Good luck to you on getting to your goal...I am working on getting to my ultimate goal weight also. So good luck and I hope to continue to hear about your progress!! :)